What do you live for?

Hmmm. I was sitting on my verandah which caught the sun. I was sitting the peace,watching the green leaves of the trees wave in the hot afternoon breeze. The only sound was the whir of the fan blades. As I come up for air from the book I was reading,my mind registered that this moment is what life is all about-for me. To be in a state of peace,doing what you like best,where all the world is contained in that second of deep and abiding peace,of serene grace. During these moments,I dont have to think of my faults and foibles,or of my endless need for material things.

At these moments,I feel one with the world,wordlessly caught up in the rythm of the universe itself. That is when I forget the "I". So insignificant. Sometimes its painful to see how we refuse to acknowledge the truth- most of what we do is insignificant.

My grandmother died recently-I was close to her and she was a nice lady. But as life picks up and goes on,I was reminded of this-though I really dont know who said it:

It amazes me how human beings live as if they will never die and die as if they never lived.

So I decided to live and here another surprise awaited me. It was not all about the dress I really needed,or the perfume I must have or the house to equal my cousins/friends. Its something unique to each person. For me,I decided to care for the other people in my life. Really care not the selfish love that is more concerned with ones own wants and comforts.

Another thought helped me. Mary Angelou says-People will forget what you do and what you say. But they will never forget how you made them feel.

So I am on a crusade to be more conscious of others,to make each of one of the folks I know realize that they are accepted and cared for. And that is one of the legacies I hope to leave behind.